It has once again been awhile since I've written and for that I apologize. A lot has happened since March. We finished my brother's basement and I got a job at Best Buy so life has been moving very quickly. It's been good being busy as I haven't had a lot of time to reflect on the changes taking place around me. It did occur to me though that right now I may be too busy. I feel like a social part of my life isn't where I would like to be and I am looking to fulfill that. I have gone on a few dates since I last posted but nothing promising. I am still plagued to not find a healthy relationship, perhaps because there are very few persons that share the same view points as me in respect to life and being fulfilled. I deep down value relationships above all else and yet it is the thing that I feel causes the most difficulty to my life. I often feel like many of my friendships and relationships are one sided as I'm the one doing all the work to hang out, to think of stuff to do, and on being flexible on trying new things. As I get older it seems I grow away from particular groups of friends for these reasons and consider their lack of contact and companionship forms of abandonment whether accidental or on purpose. Being through everything I have I know what it means to have a good friend to talk to in need, and it can make all the difference. Unfortunately most my friends would pour their hearts out to me in a second but at the off chance I might be feeling out of place I am felt as if I'm in convincing the people around me.
