Why is it I never get it until later, like way later. Often I check out from my conscious mind and don’t know where I go. I forget to do something or forget to do something and it snowballs into something so much bigger. A girl that I had such great chemistry with and I killed it because I forgot how to feel, I forgot what feelings looked like. What is love with no emotion? I’m sure I’ve royally messed it up. Sometimes I feel like just bitching but I don’t really have anyone to talk to about it. I want people to talk to me about it but I don’t want to bring it up, I don’t want to pity myself when it really would have been wise to talk it out.
Why is it that I feel the best when I’m just talking with someone? Its like were talking about what really matters and my mind knows it.
I find it hard for me to say things like “I missed you”, to give hugs, to flirt, or even to show interest in anyone. Is it a lack of confidence, or am I afraid to feel?
This is starting to weigh on me, I am tired of feeling so alone and burnt out but I don’t know what to change, where to go, or who to talk to.
How do you tell someone you felt a coldness in their heart that wasn’t their before?
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